I'm getting used to things changing at the moment - a lot is happening in my life, and its left me in a bit of a spin. But I'm really enjoying the chances that are coming from all the change...
Its almost like I can rebuild my life to work the way it needs to from now on.
This means that some things need to change - and some things will fall to the wayside. It's a real shame that one of the items which has dropped has to be the youth work I've been doing with St John's and Christ Church.
I've loved doing it. The chance to pass on what (rather limited) wisdom I have and share my faith with others. It has been a pleasure being able to lead Questors and parts of Anvil Group. But I have to admit it took a lot out of me, while I had no spare time to get anything back. The result is that over the last few months, I've been doing a lot more than I should have been, and really began questioning my faith. I've been exhausted and drained in several ways - mentally, physically, spiritually, and really empty of enthusiasm. I don't mind admitting all of this, because I have the chance to move on and repair this damage. But I need a break, and that means I have stopped being part of youth work for now (with the exception of doing the occasional event/weekend).
It does feel like there's a rather large hole at the moment, and it really is difficult to come to terms with that. But I'll get there. I'm just a little subdued at the moment (doesn't help that I didn't get the job I interviewed for yesterday morning), and wondering where I can go now.
But there we go. While we stand still, the world moves round us faster than we can comprehend.
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